I hate love but still...I'm in love

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so
vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it
means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up
all these defenses, you build a whole suit of armor, so that nothing
could hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other
stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... you give them a piece
of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like
kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love take hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you
crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like "maybe we should be
just friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your
heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I
hate love."

Wohoo~ I'm so mess up.
It seem like everyone down one paper and many more to go. Me? I have my first paper tomorrow morning and many more paper to go. Damn it!! Good luck to everyone having exams.