Evertthing will be just fine

For the past entire April of this, I don't have a chance to be me. I've so determine for something until I've forgotten my dignity and her freedom....
So now I've to say....

Everything will be fine...

Even though I've to lie to everyone including me.
I can't handle too many things now where my heart and soul is not with me...
Sometimes, no matter how carefully you plan your playlist, there is no right track for what awaits you